Day Three Alzheimer's

Three days in the long term alzheimer's unit and my mom has reportedly transitioned well. She does appear to have accepted her new home, until she is alone with me. Mom has grown solum and verbalizes a wish to die rather than to stay in that awful place. She has thrown some guilt my way and spent most of her time with me crying and hugging her beloved Henri. As her clarity has returned so has her ability to try to control her environment. Today was hard. I watched her hug and hold her dog and talk with him as if he might have the ability to change the fate of her future. He has been her buddy and she has been his. I am considering this time of clarity as a gift. Mom's confusion has begun to return and she has begun to retell the same information many times.
As we left today, Henri tried to pull his way back to the door that led inside the building where his beloved master now lives. I wish there was a way for them to be together full time.
I tried to take care of me a little more today. I took the time to go to the eye doctor and get new contacts. I was wearing two left eye contacts and they were going on 3 months old. It was time. I also sat down and ate a sandwich in a cafe for lunch.
Tomorrow is the last day of summer school so at the end of the morning session I plan to do something fun, just for me. I also plan to look at healthy recipes for one that I might cook this weekend so that I can try to pull together some nutrition in place of the current fair of filler food.
I wish this phase of my life was not happening, but I know that I am not alone.